After hard trying to get rid of the sadness because I lost Oky...I continued Binging...Made new friends..Met new people who affected in my life,though I know them cyberly...
Lemah Lanang.
Was his nick name,I rarely chatted with him,but at that day I felt absofuckinglutely close to him.
We met only in chat room,but then I found his Friendster and my heart beat faster when I saw his pic.
SWEET!!!
Hehehe.
Then we decided to be in a realationship...through net and phone...
And finally I decided to visit him in Jogja...I've never gone alone that far...but I don't know how could I got that bravery to go to Jogja,alone.
It was in April '09, if i'm not mistaken...
Stayed with him for somedays and tried to knew him more... Ya,i did fall in love,deeply.
He is not handsome,even I can say that he is black,skinny,but there is an inner beauty inside him which I couldn't find in any other faces.
Our love grew stronger after that meeting...but again,it had to be end with GoodbyE.
A month later,again I visited him,when I just reached the rilway station he told me that he had another new gf. He found her in Morange...ya,he left Bing and moved to Morange..and I followed him and it led me to deep sadness.
He chosed that girl.
I couldn't accept it..but it was the fact.
Are Allah,is that my destiny?
To be left again and over again after everything I've done for those guys??
Till now,I keep asking,where is the justice.
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